SECRET NOT SECRET.ORG 5. 20 .23 1 WELCOME! "Secret Not Secret" by Michael Dean Jarman *sorry for any typos, there are many, just roll with it, hey it's free right? What i s "Secret Not Secret" ? Why is it 270 pages long ? Why is it in 5 different parts ? TRY SETTING A TIMER FOR 10 MINU TES AND SEE HOW FAR YOU GET Answer #1 : For more than 187 years prior to August 2017 millions of followers of "The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter - Day Saints proudly referred to themselves as "Mormons." Since then however and with nearly 17 million foll owers today, the culture has preferred not to use the term " Mormons " and prefers other terms including " Member " and " LDS " instead. However, for the organization as a whole including it's trillion dollar commercial and financial functions including it's uni versities, it's peculiar privately owned law school, it's billions of dollars of stock holdings, it's land holdings etc... the term "Mormonism" is acceptable. That said, "Secret Not Secret" reveals an unprecedented case study of "The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter - Day Saints." The result is an unconscionable but ultimately patriotic, third narrative for " Mormonism ." This original, unique, third narrative is based on thousands of hidden, verifiable facts from the U.S.A.'s pre - modern times through today an d is told from the fictional perspective of a fearless 15 year old female victim. This third narrative is the most comprehensive, factually correct, irrefutabl e narrative for Mormonism...ever. An open invitation continues to be extended to any historians who dare claim it is not. This is Part 1 of 5 in "Secret Not Secret" and is titled "The Book Of T he Bone Fire Girl ." It starts on page 21. The Table of Contents is on Page 11 The table of contents SECRET NOT SECRET.ORG 5. 20 .23 2 includes a list of four summaries of "The Book Of The Bone Fire Girl" from othe r informative perspectives. A short video about "The Book Of The Bone Fire Girl" can be found on TikTok @GuvvyWuvvy title d "Why all members are victims " There are also other geeking out videos there shedding light on why all me mbers are victims of monetiz ed selective history and other unconscionable challenges regardless of leadership role or not AND that it's not their fault. Links to other geeking out videos including how Californians can save California by helping be become the next Governor of Utah and more about this including my contact information can be found at www.UtahDap.com Answer #2 : You should be able to tell clearly by now that "Secret Not Secret" is NOT AN ATTACK on followers of "The Church of Je sus Christ of Latter - Day Saints." "Secre t Not Secret" i s personalizing, inclusive and validating. Here's 7 more reasons why... # 1. If you are a n American , "Secret Not Secret" includes a n unconscionable but proud rewriting of U.S. History and the brave immigrants from places like Scotland, Irela nd and England # 2. If you are a follower , a former follower, one of the many " followers fighting followers " or even a non - follower of "The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter - Day Saints , " Part 1 is also a shocking rewriting of " Church History " with a brig ht, patriotic message spanning more than 223 years #3. Although some p eople w ill attempt to claim "The Book Of T he Bone Fire Girl" is a misguided jukebox rock n' roll "parody " at best, it is more factually correct than any other version of American Hist ory or narrative of Church History that you were taught (even if "The Book Of The Bone Fire Girl" does have relevant '80's music lyrics sprinkled throughout .) So you can discover for yourself how few creative liberties I took in creating this latest draf t of the unprecedented, in - depth, comprehensive , " fictional " context of the factually based " The Book Of T he Bone Fire Girl," I have also made available to you hundreds of hidden l inks for your SECRET NOT SECRET.ORG 5. 20 .23 3 comparison and discussion. Some of the most critical surface l inks take you deep within Brigham Young U niversity's own hidden archives (legally.) This includes that 99% of Mormonism's leadership are related to one or more other leaders in one way or another (and some are related to controversial U.S. politicians go ing back several decades) but even with all this , all followers ( and even the leadership ) a re victims of selective , cultural history purveyed to one generation or another and it's not their fault Among countless other curiosities, "The Book Of The Bone F ire Girl" also shines a new light on : 1) W hy for decades critical "secrets" involving temples are in recent years taught as "not secret" to the next generation without telling the previous generation; 2) W hy "The Book of Mormon" has had more than 3,000 err ors corrected while other errors were not corrected ; 3) W hy there is a 10 year gap filled with overlapping, repetitive, counter intuitive events involving many different pe ople with many unique abilities, reputations and connections during a critical 42 ye ar period in U.S. History between 1803 - 1845 ; 4) W hy d uring this 42 year period the U.S. begin stalling at forming new states on paper after forming the first 17 states in the 16 years between 1786 - 1803 ; 5) W hy o nly 9 states were formed on paper during thos e 42 years between 18 03 - 1845 and why within tho se 41 years only two states were formed on paper during the 24 years between 1821 - 1845 ( almost the same 24 years comprising Mormonism's pub lished beginnings that occurred from 1820 - June 27, 1844 ) It's als o important to acknowledge that e ven though this was all still decades before the civil war (1861 - 1865) , the Nation had already failed because many parts of these "states" were already fighting over one thing or another, even the "constitution , " and also h ad plans of their own. So did the surrounding Nations that already claimed the vast majority of the continent named "America" after Amerigo Vespucci in 1507 on a map made by Martin Waldseemuller. (According to most history, Columbus discovered it in 1492, 500 years after Leif Eriksson. For Eriksson, word didn't spread like it did for Columbus due to the more primitive time for Eriksson.) However, these counter intuitive events don't even began to scratch the surface of the eye - popping events you are about to discover. SECRET NOT SECRET.ORG 5. 20 .23 4 #4 If you are a citizen of Utah or have been over the last 90 years, regardless of your affiliations or not , "Secret Not Secret" is a whistleblowing report revealing 23 invisible blood soaked daggers used for the past 90 years by tribalisti c members of a private corporation allowed to hide behind the banner of "Utah Law" and be deceptively known as "The Utah State Bar " They create imposter parts under the banner of Utah's courthouses to target, to exploit and to destroy U tahan's from all w alks of life for the financial gain of their tribe and themselves To do this, h undreds of these tribalistic imposters are allowed to use these invisible blood soaked daggers by posing as "attorneys," "commissioners" and "judges." Every year, hundreds of these imposters use these 23 invisible daggers to collude in ways that include intentionally confusing and overwhelming thousands of innocent victims the imposter "attorneys" deceptively disguise as their "clients " They do this until the "clients" become so disenfranchised t hat in a regrettable moment the "clients" commit suicide and the imposters can invisibly steal hundreds of thousands of dollars from them ( and their heirs ) by adding those unconscionable amounts to the dead clients bill and then blamin g it on the dead "client." If somehow the "client" doesn't commit suicide as the imposters intentional colluding, attacking and dragging unconscionable things on for years goes on , the imposters are still able to steal tens of thousands of dollars from the "clients." There are critical parts of these 23 invisible, blood soaked daggers on the "court's" website and "Utah State Bar's" website hiding right in plain sight and those parts are identified to provide you with another way to have no doubt that this i s happening. (Archives of these websites have been made so if the imposters try to hide these parts of these 23 blood soaked daggers they can still be displayed.) These imposters use these 23 blood soaked daggers because the fortunes are so big and so eas y to steal that they have become addicted to stealing except like Mothel Gothel addicted to pulling on Rapunzel's hair, for these imposters it is worse than being addicted to crack. They are worse than addicts. They are worse than serial killers . The horri fic difference is that instead of using ropes, chains, clubs, knives and guns to kill they have found an invisible weapon. Even more horrifying, it is a weapon that people have been conditioned to believe is something that is there to protect them They h ave literally, invisibly, "weaponized" your friendly SECRET NOT SECRET.ORG 5. 20 .23 5 neighborhood courthouse into a house of horrors. They have plenty of marketing selling their blood soaked daggers as "medicine " too. There is plenty of proof and there are plenty of victims ready to come forward. Now you know what really happened to that targeted loved one who "owed their attorney so much money they must have really had a lot of problems." This unconscionable horror and betrayal allowed in Utah for more than 90 years is why parts of Utah also s ecretly have the highest rates of suicide , child abuse and financial fraud in the Nation as well as other unconscionable statistics. This is all found in Part 2. Horrifically , it is the "manufactured chaos" and actions of generational imposters tha t rope in talented, bright, once well intending students and turn them into imposters too. Everyone from the Governors office down for the past 90 years and even Utah's public law school and especially Utah's privately owned law school are to blame and the re is blood from these blood soaked daggers on everyone's hands. #5 If you are a victim, a survivor or a loved one of a victim or a survivor of any of this, "Secret Not Secret" provides a guide to not just fighting abuse but conquering abuse and it's c ycles once and for all. This includes und erstanding that "abusers" are "p eople who are hurt, hurting othe r people and hurting themselves " who then used their pain to make excuses to hurt other people instead of pursuing learning, growing and healing. This is reiterated by the opposite of that with the reality that "p eople who feel special treat other people special." This guide teaches how to conquer abuse with a new , proven spectrum identifying 55 invisible strings abusers inevitably use . In modern times words like " narcissistic," "sociopathic," and "psychopathic " have been used to describe criminal level, destructive behavior towards others but this gu ide shows that tho se are oversimplified words . It also shows how " abusers " can be people as well as par ts of groups, organizations, "the law," "politics," and horrifically even as parts of regional, local and familial cultures. As part of this new, proven spectrum this guide introduces two new metaphors to reference the broader cycle of abuse that it iden tifies and shares. These two metaphors include: " Spindling" for the way a spider SECRET NOT SECRET.ORG 5. 20 .23 6 spins invisible " strings " around it's victims to control them and then yanks on those strings when it needs to because it becomes addicted to yanking on those "strings" or , fo r fans of the Brother's Grimm's story of "Rapunzel," the new word I've created: " Gotheling " Derived from Mother Gothel and how out of her own pain she created and justified an invisible tower of lies to lock Rapunzel in and then demanded to pull on the "s trings" of Rapunzel's hair whenever she needed to make sure Rapunzel was still in th e Tower of Lies. This is Part 3. #6. "Secret Not Secret" s hares a new positive cycle to creating what I am calling " The Heard Immunity " to suicide and other emotional heal th challenges. This combines two decades of research from fearless medical professionals with the insight the new spectrum offers. This is Part 4. #7 "Secret Not Secret" s hares more Words of Wisdom including a new, sobering and hopeful interpretation fo r A.A. Milne and E.H. Shepard's original stories of "Winnie The Pooh " (not the "new" stories. Disney, call me.) This is in Part 5. Because sometimes "laughter is the best medicine" part 5 also shares some irreverent insight into a handful of well known vic tims of the spectrum who were publicly misrepresented as villains and somehow survived (So... it's been about three and a half minutes and your life has already changed way better than if you had spent that time " scrollfesting. " Di d you set that time r for 10 minutes yet or are you still cheating? ) Answer #3 : "Secret Not Secret" is a free, unprecedented body of work and parts of it are still a "work in progress." Because I'm not a professional writer an d don't ever expect to be one, use the Table of Conte nts to explore "Secret Not Secret" as if YOU are the professor and I am the student. This will help you better stomach my run - on sentences and top sy - turvy grammatical approaches. In addition to all this, many other critical topics have been allowed to go amiss in Utah and around The West under the current conditions perpetuated by the darkest parts of cultural triba lism. Because of what SECRET NOT SECRET.ORG 5. 20 .23 7 "Secret Not Secret" reveals about what needs to be done in Utah and the rest of the West, "Secret Not Secret" also make s an irrefutable case for why I should also be Utah's next Governor starting with the next election in 2024 T his is what "GuvvyWuvvy" and "The New Utah" is all about because too many parts are so broken trying to fix them would be a waste of time and new pa rts are needed instead. This includes a NEW "Utah State Bar" and new court processes transparently eliminating any opportunities for any invisible, blood soaked daggers to make anyone rich off thousands of vulnerable Utahan's experiencing divorce, custod y, collection or eviction challenges out of no fault of their own every year. Challenges that as they are addressed appropriately will also make everything better every community and neighborhood as a whole and especially for fearless law enforcement and e mergency responders in those communities. When it comes to all this some of the many solutions include: guaranteeing the safe air supply for millions of people in Utah and The West by absolutely building that pipeline from the Pacific Ocean to the Great S alt Lake and to fill other inland basins regardless of how much snow The West gets in some winters . Cloudseeding in other parts of the earth is a real thing and continues to affect weather patterns in Utah and the West in previously unimaginable ways ; a WA Y better plan than a gondola for little Cottonwood Canyon and surrounding resorts that includes Utah taking the mountain resort industry back in bigger and better ways instead of giving it away to outside interests looking to overfill bank accounts by crip pling canyon roads and lifts with impossible, overcapacity numbers of people ; my 6 year personal quest to keep all of us inspired in different ways by naming the new Salt Lake International Airport after Robert Redford; enabling kids, educators and willing communities in new ways with more sensible use of expensive school buildings up to 12 hours a day/7 days a week; Utah having it's own "Surgeon General" (just like California does) to see to it that abuse awarness and other materials for conquering abuse a re available in age appropriate ways at elementaries, junior highs , high s chools, colleges, work places and beyond (Disney did you lose your phone?) ; creating a NEW "Utah State Bar" under new guidelines and letting the current one just rot away because it is beyond reproach or repair; beautifying billboard SECRET NOT SECRET.ORG 5. 20 .23 8 messages or eliminating billboards altogether in a creative way so that our communities don't have to be burdened with the primitve messages billboards thrive on ; eliminating homelessness in Utah , in The West and in the rest of the U.S. by initiating a triple purpose multi - state facility that will serve as a model for other, equally capable states (don't worry there's plenty of cash already there to pay for it many times over but it will also pay for itsel f many times ov er in it's new, triple function .) I f you really do want to "drain the swamp" ( and I think you do, ) and save Utah, California and other Western states in the process, I demonstrate in previously unimaginable ways where the plugs in the swamp are and how to pull them and it starts with a big, tall, bald, geeky guy named Michael Dean Jarman not your ranting, raving, schill keeping you so in love or so angry with Washington D.C. that you forget to look beyond Washington D.C. Remember America is still being founded everyday and without "divide and conquer" keeping everyone loving or hating Washington D.C. the "medicine" is already in our hands Because of that, m aybe for the broken , misinterpreted, sensationalized systems of Utah and t he U.S.A. i nstead of "Republican," "Democrat," "Green," "Libertarian" or other traditional, convoluted, out - of - date names the symbol for this political movement should be "Rx" because "Rx" represents "medicine. " Because I'm a geek about all this as you can probably tell by now , I also believe that Utah's current Governor Spencer Cox will give me his endorsement for me being governor starting in 2025 . Contributing to this belief is because in recent years it has become apparent that he has other talents, abilities and concerns that if he is given the freedom to cultivate and pursue, he will do inspiring things with and that will be rewarding for Utah's people and diverse cultures of all ages in many ways (even though he too is quietly a member of the deceptive "Utah St ate Bar" and has been shortsightedly forced to do things in his roles as Lieutenant Governor for 8 years and now as Governor for 2 years that I'm sure he regrets.) The rocket ship to conquering these challenges at all elevations in Utah gravitates around what Utah has been, what Utah is and what Utah can be for it's 3.2 million full - time residents, for it's hundreds of thousands of part - time residents, for more than 10 million visitors every year (and SECRET NOT SECRET.ORG 5. 20 .23 9 growing), for the rest of the U.S.A . and for the globe (whether or not that rocket ship needs roads.) It's very cool that you are willing to be a part of this ongoing conversation. As far as this PDF goes, t here will also, always be typos so just roll with it . I promise. It's crazy how much time it takes ju st to reconcile and confirm facts, add a few sentences somewhere, adjust pages, adjust page numbers, blah blah blah...then redo it all a few days later because something new was discovered only to redo it again eventually anyway I can't imagine how they man aged to publish even one book let alone hundreds of thousands of books on two different continents before 1820. In those times with all those additional challenges, the abilities of people like James Fenimore Cooper, the author of "The Last of the Mohicans " and the author of 50 other published books and some unpublished books, Benjamin Franklin (with his many pseudonyms all having a different eyebrow raising purpose) and Henri Le Rennet and others must have been superhuman. For "quotable quotes" used in t his version of "Secret Not Secret" , I didn't reveal the names of who they are credited to for several reasons. This is because some of them are by me and if you're really interested in who is "credited" with a quote a search for it will bring other rewardi ng opportunities for curiosity, discovery and surprise. (Like in the case of Shakespeare how one credited quote might imply something very different than what is lesser known to be believed about him and the previously accepted, pre - modern sources of a few of his most popular stories.) I'm also more of concept and research geek rather than a "w - r - i - t - e - r" but I also believe in exploring new challenges . B ecause of that (attempting) to put this five - part body of work together pro bono under circumstances ve ry far from ideal as well as other overwhelming challenges that I never could have imagined , has been a lot of emotional and intellectual heavy lifting for me for an overwhelmingly unpredictable amount of time and I'm proud to say that . Because of that, th e experience to get to this part of the journey has transformed me in ways that I never could have imagined and that I am very grateful for If you're lucky, this body of work will challenge you in new ways too and hopefully the additional resources avai lable will result in endless self - congratulations and some virtual mid - sentence fist - bumps between us (aka SECRET NOT SECRET.ORG 5. 20 .23 10 " dap s " ) until one day we can meet. (Plan on it for my inauguration to be Utah's next GuvvyWuvvy starting on Monday, January 6, 2025) My apologies i f in my geeking out I seem a little rough around the edges at times as you explore this guide because I'm sure the combination of all this on me shows at times even though I 've tried to keep it "PG" rated which is hard because although I'm a geek I've also worked some of the roughest jobs the West can offer at times and "colorful language" and other antics in those jobs is part of staying positive by antagonizing each other with it all at times. I also have a cowboy uncle who is a verbal - ten - ton - automatic - shotgun of a wordsmith and who I know could keep even Mark Twain wordstruck at the drop of a hat and there are plenty of lessons I learned as a kiddo from being around him (some better than others.) Even though this body of work is still a "work - in - progre ss " (a nd probably always will be) it was important to me to start releasing it here regardless of imperfections because of who will benefit from it ( a.k.a. kiddos of all ages. ) Hopefully you knowing this helps shine a light on why parts might seem less - tha n - polished. Although there is still some more equipment to choose regarding parts of this, the game plan is in place and that is thrilling. There are also dozens of resources created by others that this body of work couldn't have been created without an d whose creators I look forward to acknowledging more specifically in future editions as a result of communicating with them (or their descendants) as this work continues. There is also a lot of work to still be done with you , my " profess - or," being invit ed to help navigate it in new ways. (Hey who doesn't love a good accidental double entendre right ? ) As you explore "Secret Not Secret , " remember... "If an angry person picks up a sword their life will soon end and they will be forgotten. If an angry pers on picks up a candle, a ruler and a pencil, their life will soon begin and they will be remembered." "When a person knows their enem ies better than their enemies know themselves, they no longer have enemies, they have opportunities ." SECRET NOT SECRET.ORG 5. 20 .23 11 "The truth is like a lion, you don't h ave to defend it. Let it loose and it will defend itself." T ABLE OF CONTENTS ****** Invitations regarding the bright truths shared in this body of work. P ages: 12 - 20 ****** PART ONE: " The Book Of The Bone Fire Girl " Page: 21 - 112 * Regarding those different, short , s urface summaries of " The Book of The Bone Fire Girl." Four of them from different perspectives ranging from 2 - 9 pages each can be found starting on page 245 ****** PART TWO: "The Destruction, the Devastation and the Cour se Correction" (Early 1900's through today) Page: 90 "23 Invisible Daggers" Page: 110 ****** PART THREE: "A Grain of Salt To Trade For Anything" (Including the list of 55 abuses) Page: 150 ****** PART FOUR: "The Marvelous Works and The Wonder" (Incl uding how to create "The Heard Immunity" to suicide, to other Emotional Health Challenges and to other tragedies.) Page: 209 SECRET NOT SECRET.ORG 5. 20 .23 12 ****** PART FIVE: "More Words Of Wisdom" Page: 220 A NOTE REGARDING ETIQUETTE FOR FOLLOWERS OF "THE CHURCH OF JESUS CHRIST OF LATTER - DAY SAINTS (FORMERLY REFERRED TO AS "MORMONS") AND THE AUTHOR'S USE OF THE WORD "MORMONISM" AS OPPOSED TO "MORMON" Out of respect to that preference and to minimize any chances for confusion or suspicion of ill will about all this, it needs to be noted that the use of the word "Mormonism" is in reference to the entire organization including more than a dozen corporations as well as the entire organization's past, present and future functions not just it's cultural functions. Hopefully (and for many reasons), the use of the term Mormonism for this purpose is fair an d understandable. Because this guide is available globally and because of what it reveals about certain parts of Mormonism and how that may affect victims from all walks of life, especia lly those vulnerable young men and women serving as missionaries , it's important to remember, "an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure." This is important when it comes to protecting them from potential opportunists. If you are a follower and all this sounds a little overwhelming, keep going! You will discover "pounds of cure" for your self, your loved ones, your neighbors and your community. ****** THIS GUIDE AND THE HIDDEN LINKS TO VERIFY ALL THIS Because you may have discovered parts of th is in paper that someone printed off and shared in one way or another , the entirety of "Secret Not Secret" can be found online at www. PDF Host.io by searching " Secret Not Secret " for the most recent version. ( Between October 2022 and May 2023, five previous versions have had more than 12 ,000 downloads combined ) SECRET NOT SECRET.ORG 5. 20 .23 13 Because "links" won't work from PDFHost.io, and that's the best place to share this PDF for now, the links to hundreds of resources (and my contact information for group discussion or professional inquiries) can be found at www.UtahDap.com . There you can find: an invitation to play a critical role in seeing several of the new causes this body of work introduces come to fruition, a link to hundreds of resources I discovered and pieced together for th is , a link to the latest version of "Secret Not Secret" and some of my many geeking out attempts at sha ring parts of this over the years. (Yup, I really did that...and that...and that...and it's all still on youtube because it's part of this part of the story an d because I'm a proud geek.) For now, o ther relevant domains highlighted in this guide should point you directly to one of these two pages until those links can be developed into their intended entities. AN INVITATION TO ALL OFFICIAL AND UNOFFICIAL L. D.S. HISTORIANS AND U.S. HISTORIANS ESPECIALLY AT OXFORD, EDINBURGH, COLUMBIA UNIVERSITY NEW YORK, HARVARD, BRIGHAM YOUNG UNIVERSITY AND SUNSET VIEW ELEMENTARY These pages represent a body of work including future publications, documentaries, films, web s ites, podcasts, support groups and more presented in part with an intricate, elaborate, original context catalyzed by the author's office. This context has been catalyzed from hidden history , forgotten history, claimed history and discr epancies discovered , intuited or otherwise brought to light through the author's office. L.D.S. h istorians, U.S. historians , influencers and others of any persuasion and including any of the dozens of sanctioned and unsanctioned organizations including "FARMS", "FAIR" and others who may politely disagree with any part deemed critical to the overall context the author's office has catalyzed for "SECRET NOT SECRET" INCLUDING "THE BOOK OF THE BONE FIRE GIRL" or any other part of this guide are extended a continued invitation f or polite and public discussion regarding this body of work. SECRET NOT SECRET.ORG 5. 20 .23 14 EMERGENCY RESOURCES If you are one of the millions of victims of these certain parts of Mormonism or are one of the hundreds of thousands of descendants of any of the people represented i n The Book of The Bone Fire Girl, please do not take any of this personally as you may have been conditioned to do. Remember, this is not about blame mongering. This is about conversation starting and discovering blossoms of healing and learning Until m ore specific support groups are created en mass in to aid in this rewarding process for everybody, outside resources for help for now include dialing the 988 Crisis Lifeline or going to www.988lifeline.org. Another resource is www.StopItNow.org. Click on "Help and Guidance" near the top, then click on "Library of Resources" and under the "Quick Links" click on "Crisis Hotlines." Remember to pursue at least 2 or 3 resources so you can be enabled with more than one to discover what will work for you. Consi der looking for other resources online using similar key words including the local area as well as working with established community resources to organize support groups in public buildings where available. CONQUERING THE REVERBERATING STRINGS OF ABUS E, THE DEPERSONALIZING ECHO CHAMBERS THAT FOLLOW AND THE MALADAPTIVE FALSE COMFORTERS THEY GIVE RISE TO (a.k.a. "Staging for the adventure," "A well stocked base camp ," "Being prepared is an opportunity to feel smart." ) When it comes the new, proven spectrum o f abuse known as "Spindling" or "Gotheling" it could also be referred to as "55 Signs You're In An Abusive Relationship With An Imposter, a Hijacker or An Imitator " SECRET NOT SECRET.ORG 5. 20 .23 15 In addition to everything else an abuser can be, intentionally or unintention ally, an abuser can also be your self towards your self , intentionally or unintentionally. This is because r egardless of where the reverberating strings of those 55 abuses come from, o ut of no fault of your own , parts of your brain can sometimes be deceiv ed into responding in many deceptive ways including creating depersonalizing echo chambers and then maladaptive false comforters to attempt to appease those depersonalizing echo chambers Don't let this happen because these non - sustainable false comforters can sometimes be self - destructive, self - deceiving nightmares that lead to many other overwhelming challenges out of no fault of your own The abuses, the depersonalizing echo chambers and the maladaptive false comforters are imposters, hijackers and imita tors. S ome false comforters are exponenti ally more deceptive than others. This includes any of the " emotional health challenges " oversimplified with shortsighted words like "disorders" or other acronyms including : "obsessive compulsive behavior," " anxiet y ," " hoarding ," "bi - polar," "borderline personality , " "anorexia," "bulimia," "homesickness," "ADD," "ADHD," and on and on. They all start with those imposters, hijackers and imitators. T hese also includes resentment, jealousy, misplaced anger, fear, doubt, self - serving sorrow ( as opposed to sorrow promoting learning, growing or action ), comparing to others , being offended, t aking anythin g personally, confirmation bias, projecting, "turning the other cheek , " (some that are disguised forms of self - destructive self - righteousness because there is a more rewarding way ), what is sometimes labeled by parts of emotional healthcare as the responses of " freezing, fleeing or fighting " and even abusing others as an invisible but now diminishable, internal, maladaptive a ddiction They are all imposters, hijackers and imitators. "That which you allow to anger you, you also give the power to be your master." C onversations regarding what other maladaptive false comforters are will fill volumes SECRET NOT SECRET.ORG 5. 20 .23 16 C onversations about what aren't false comforters will also fill many volumes. ( An example of something that isn't a false comforter is invited fear that may be from an adventure, an accepted challenge, etc... ) With this spectrum and the awareness, intervention and empowerment that comes with it, instead of being deceived by those imposters, hijackers and imitators there is something else. There is a more rewarding way. It is something you already know how to do but different challenges contributed to you being temporarily overwhelme d and not doing it. There isn't one word to describe it and to aid in conversation I'll share some notes about it. I'm sure you'll have plenty of notes of your own too. This is partly because i nstead of that " defining " with those oversimplified, shortsi ghted words, it is a type of " refining ." One way to describe it is in stead of "freezing, fleeing or fighting" it is "flipping the script." It is more than that though, i t is striking a match to that false script. It is turning the page on the notes o f that frigid, false script and letting the warmth of the notes of your own music echo and comfort instead. I t is stopping th at flood and vaporizing it. It is taking the shade off the light. It is seeding and re - seeding. It is personalizing. It is r epersonalizing. It is radiant. It is radia ting . It is radiantly radiating. It is not just that "fire" that burns the old and warms anew as it does , it is that "white fire" that creates It is igniting. It is breathing. It is maneuvering. It is learnin g. It is teaching . It is applauding. It is cheering. It is that first water. It is that first medicine , that first "Rx ." I t is enabling all these beautiful special wonders and more beautiful, special wonders in beautiful , special, reciprocating ways Wonderful , special wonders that have been impostered, hijacked and imitated for far too lon g. For trauma geeks, i t also includes the brilliantly dynamic spectrum of physiological topics that include oxytocin, dopamine and endorp hins, SECRET NOT SECRET.ORG 5. 20 .23 17 adrenaline and cort isol relating in independent or reciprocating ways as part of a spectrum that includes aphrodisiac and non - aphrodisiac topics This includes how in different ways d ifferent physiologies may pr oduce and process all of these internal " components " at differen t levels at different times in i n dependent or reciprocating ways producing different reactions and experiences and it's no ones fault because they are now identifiable. Rather than being des cribed as a path or a line, the reverbe rating strings that make up the spectrum and cycles of abuse seem to be better visualized as a spinning spindle shaped like an inverted cone (a funnel.) This peculiar s pindle also helps visualize a more challenging part of the spectrum that without awareness and intervention abus ers become overwhelmed and entangled in as they begin combining abuses and targeting and abusing victims i n worse ways. I call these depths of the cone " The - Funnel - Of - No - Return ." This includes : the abuser becoming warpedly, derangedly addicted to self - de structive, maladaptive, physiological reactions with in themselves and doing other self - destructive things to appease those internal addictions (a false comforter ); developing non - sustainable addiction s to outside chemical substances (drugs, alcohol, etc... an other false comforter); the abuser end ing up in prison from their abuses towards others growing worse and worse and them finally getting caught no matter how unconscionable their lies or actions become; or them ending up dead as a consequences of all or pa rt of all this To overcome this " Death Spiral " and vaporize the cone and let those other special wonders take it's place, abusers just need to pursue awareness and int ervention before it's too late, and there's a powerful reason for this : that reason th at they started as victims too. To attempt to lessen the burd en of referencing this cone that is the spectrum of abuses with it's 55 reverberating strings of abuse and worse when the abuser combines abuses, I am referring to the spectrum as the " S pindl ing Cone of I nvisible Strings, Addictions, Abuses and Horrors " ( aka " SCISAAHS " ). Yes, another metaphor as if two weren't enough already. This is because knowing about this spectrum rea lly is like a pair of "scissors. " It not only cuts those reverberating strings of abuse and allows victims to SECRET NOT SECRET.ORG 5. 20 .23 18 enjoy the wonders of being powerful survivors it allows them to enjoy the wonders of conquering abuse by being powerful rescuers too and when the time is right informing their abusers of all this so the abusers can s ee that there is a clear, bright path to learning, growing and healing no matter how jagged and dark their path has become and that they can also be an advocate for learning, growing and healing too. (Isn't this more rewarding than simply "turning the othe r cheek" and allowing the abuser to get worse and worse by not teaching them and conquering the abuse?) With this guide , i nstead of "hurt people hurting other people (and hurting themselves even worse ) " there will be more "people who feel special treatin g other people special." This conversation also includes how there are indicat ions that some of these abuses as shortsighted manipulation tactics were derived from experiments on innocent, unsuspecting, people deceived by parts of the public institutions they trusted (and paid fortunes to under the banners of "education.") These broken parts of these institutions then developed and quietly shared the dark tactics from their research in unconscionable ways An example of this is dark "studies" on student s at imposter parts of Harvard University (b y way of Columbia University New York) that were then further perpetuated through Brigham Young University (BYU) and other public and private i nstitutions and organizations ( including Stanford ) Basically the " experiments" resulted in "H ow to be a Spindler as a culture, an institution or an organization without realizing that you will inevitably be conquered in very public ways for being a Spindler." Before this guide immeasurable deception, altered lives, lost opportunity and tr agedy for an immeasurable number of victims was the shameful , ongoing, generational result of these "studies" affecting millions upon millions of people. This guide is the light to conquer that darkness. With an invitation from me to th ese institutions and other institutions who have not allowed parts of their organizations to engage in these criminal abuses , I look forward to us working with the broken parts of these broken institutions to help them fix these unimaginable horrors and to prevent them from ever happening again. For them and for all of us, let's remember: "It's not the mistakes we make but what we do to correct them." And there is still lots of correcting that needs to be done. SECRET NOT SECRET.ORG 5. 20 .23 19 * ***** Flex ing Your Vocab Alchemy - A process of transformation. Altruism - A person's behaviors regarding their own unique perception of the greater good. Anachronistic - A counterintuitive suggested placing of people, objects, events or customs. Apophenia - Perceiving superficial connec tions between unrelated things. Asynchronous - Related events , including mechanical, technical, digital, scientific, historical, cultural (or otherwise) and intentional, unintentional or otherwise believed to not have occurred or to be occurring concurren tly or simultaneously. Chiasmus - A positive massive action in which words, grammatical constructions, methods, concepts, cultures or civilizations are transformed by being progressively reversed. Intangible - Innate. Inferred. Ability, action, presence or occurrence. Without physical presence. Not being able to be physically touched or grasped. Intro, Outro and Extro - A term I created with the