SPERON E WESTWATER 257 Bowery New York 10002 T + 1 212 999 7337 F + 1 212 999 7338 w w w . s p e r o n e w e s t w a t e r . c o m John Giorno , Eating the Sky , 19 78 I don’t know what you’ve been doing today I don’t know what you’ve been doing today, but today was one of the worst days of my life but today was one of the worst days of my life but today was one of the worst days of my life, and you’re walking down 2nd Avenue coming to St. Marks Place and you’re walking down 2nd Avenue coming to St. Marks Place, and all these street junkies and whores all these street junkies and whores, and all these straight people going to work and all these straight people going to work, ants coming out of the ground at Astor Place SPERON E WESTWATER 257 Bowery New York 10002 T + 1 212 999 7337 F + 1 212 999 7338 w w w . s p e r o n e w e s t w a t e r . c o m ants coming out of the ground at Astor Place, and why is everybody so ugly and why is everybody so ugly and why is everybody so ugly and I know we haven’t been together for a long time I know we haven’t been together for a long time, and you’re being warm, hospitable, and gracious and you’re being, warm, hospitable, and gracious, you’re cooking dinner you’re cooking dinner, and thank you for the cracker and cheese and thank you for the cracker and cheese, and we’re sitting here drinking Scotch and smoking a joint we’re sitting here drinking Scotch and smoking a joint, and the thought of being here for 6 more hours SPERON E WESTWATER 257 Bowery New York 10002 T + 1 212 999 7337 F + 1 212 999 7338 w w w . s p e r o n e w e s t w a t e r . c o m and the thought of being here for 6 more hours, I don’t ever want to be here again I don’t ever want to be here again I don’t ever want to be here again I don’t ever want to be I just want to get away from you I just want to get away from you, it’s Pasadena, baby, and how can I get out the back And it’s sad to say cause you are my friends it’s sad to say cause you are my friends, but I hate every moment being here with you I hate every moment being here with you, and it’s a complete waste of time because I’ve been SPERON E WESTWATER 257 Bowery New York 10002 T + 1 212 999 7337 F + 1 212 999 7338 w w w . s p e r o n e w e s t w a t e r . c o m through this one before cause I’ve been through this one before you do nothing but rip off whatever is being given you do nothing but rip off whatever is being given, and you wake up and you wake up and you remember you were dreaming you remember you were dreaming you wake up and you remember you are dreaming, you were dreaming you were dreaming you were dreaming you were only dreaming, wake up you’re dreaming wake up you’re dreaming wake up you’re dreaming, oh no oh no, do I look like that oh no, do I look like that oh no, do I look like that I’m walking straight SPERON E WESTWATER 257 Bowery New York 10002 T + 1 212 999 7337 F + 1 212 999 7338 w w w . s p e r o n e w e s t w a t e r . c o m ahead I’m walking straight ahead and I’m wearing black boots and I’m wearing black boots, black and mean, heart breakers, taking my love and leaving me behind taking my love and leaving me behind taking my love and leaving me behind and you’re walking proud and you’re walk ing proud, and you’re walking on a marble floor and you’re walking on a marble floor, in the Hotel Pierre, and you’re on a high roll you’re on a high roll, you’re boy is on a high roll, and I’m glued to the saddle and I’m glued to the saddle, I’m playing hard ball I’m playing hard ball I’m playing hard ball, SPERON E WESTWATER 257 Bowery New York 10002 T + 1 212 999 7337 F + 1 212 999 7338 w w w . s p e r o n e w e s t w a t e r . c o m and I want it all now and I want it all now and I want it all now and I want it all now, and nothing less and nothing less and nothing less, we’re American Airlines, doing what we do best, and I don’t know where I am when I’m standing here and I don’t know where I am when I’m standing here and I don’t know where I am when I’m standing here, and I get great pleasure in not knowing where I am and I get great pleasure in not knowing where I am, in between your breaths in between your breaths where there is no subject or object, SPERON E WESTWATER 257 Bowery New York 10002 T + 1 212 999 7337 F + 1 212 999 7338 w w w . s p e r o n e w e s t w a t e r . c o m and no concepts and no concepts and no concepts and no concepts I just want you to hold my hand I just want you to hold my hand I just want you to hold my hand, cause I’m in Calcutta, India, cause I’m in Calcutta, India, palm trees and air pollution palm trees and air pollution, and everywhere you turn someone’s trying to hustle money from you and everywhere you turn someone’s trying to hustle money from you, and air pollution worse than New York could dream possible, sucking in the carbon monoxide sucking in the carbon monoxide, like I’m sucking a joint, SPERON E WESTWATER 257 Bowery New York 10002 T + 1 212 999 7337 F + 1 212 999 7338 w w w . s p e r o n e w e s t w a t e r . c o m and I’m staying in a hotel with wall - to - w all gold carpets I’m staying in a hotel with wall - to - wall gold carpets, scotch whiskey and Nepali hash scotch whiskey and Nepali hash, room service is going to bring me a hamburger room service is going to bring me a hamburger and a chocolate fudge ice cream sundae and a chocolate fudge ice cream sundae, and the closed circuit push - button Muzak radio and the closed circuit push - button Muzak radio is playing nobody sings a love song quite like you do nobody sings a love song quite like you do nobody sings a love song quite like you do, and you are in Calcutta, SPERON E WESTWATER 257 Bowery New York 10002 T + 1 212 999 7337 F + 1 212 999 7338 w w w . s p e r o n e w e s t w a t e r . c o m and the beggars are grabbing at you and the beggars are grabbing at you, it’s poverty, Mr. President, and the lepers alongside you on the pavement are like my honey and the lepers alongside you on the pavement are like my honey, cruising Christopher Street cruising Christopher Street cruising Christopher Street, you are the worst lover I’ve ever had you are the worst lover I’ve ever had, I never put my head on your shoulder I never put my head on your shoulder, and he’s a dirty schizoid he’s a dirty schizoid, and it's cool - aid punch, poison, ugliness and disappointment cool - aid punch, poison, ugliness and disappointment cool - aid punch, ugliness, poison and disappointment And I lost SPERON E WESTWATER 257 Bowery New York 10002 T + 1 212 999 7337 F + 1 212 999 7338 w w w . s p e r o n e w e s t w a t e r . c o m my job 2 years ago I lost my job 2 years ago, and I drive a truck I drive a truck, and they took my house and my car away they took my house and my car away, and we’re living in this apartment and we’re living in this apartment, and I never thought it would come to this and I never thought it would come to this, and I’m scared of dying and I’m scared of dying and I’m scared of dying and I keep thinking about the same thing over and over again I keep thinking about the same thing over and over again, I keep repeating in my head what I said to you I keep repeating in my head what I said to you, the same sentence, SPERON E WESTWATER 257 Bowery New York 10002 T + 1 212 999 7337 F + 1 212 999 7338 w w w . s p e r o n e w e s t w a t e r . c o m I go first cabin I go first cabin, and you’re staying in the Grand Hotel you’re staying in the Grand Hotel, hamburgers and fries and cherry pies hamburgers and fries and cherry pies, and you’re getting fat when you put your pants on you’re getting fat when you put y our pants on, cause you gotta make it pay cause you gotta make it pay, like my Daddy once said, “It’s trying to put 50 pounds of mud in a 5 pound bag" and money is your big card money is your big card money is your big card and in the morning when I’m shaving in the morning when I’m shaving, SPERON E WESTWATER 257 Bowery New York 10002 T + 1 212 999 7337 F + 1 212 999 7338 w w w . s p e r o n e w e s t w a t e r . c o m and I cut myself and I cut myself and I cut myself, I know it’s going to be a bad day I know it’s going to be a bad day I kno w it’s going to be a bad day, and when I go out of this house, we gotta have security, when I go out of this house, we gotta have security security, now I want you to call a limo I want you to call a limo, Dav - el Livery and say I want a Lincoln Dav - el Livery and say I want a Lincoln, and I’m having myself a couple of lovers I’m having myself a couple of lovers, but I want to call a meeting of all my advisors I want to call a meeting of all my advisors, cause I want to say, SPERON E WESTWATER 257 Bowery New York 10002 T + 1 212 999 7337 F + 1 212 999 7338 w w w . s p e r o n e w e s t w a t e r . c o m I’m in trouble I’m in trouble I’m in trouble I’m in trouble I’m in trouble I’m in trouble, so take this job and shove it I aint working here no more so take this job and shove it I ain't workin here no more, booze, cocaine, dope, and cigarettes booze, cocaine, dope, and cigarettes, booze, cocaine, dope, and cigarettes ruthless and always right ruthless and always righ t and you're staying in a motel in Milwaukee and you're staying in a motel in Milwaukee and you’re smoking a joint and you’re smoking a joint, and I’m gonna get myself another drink and I’m gonna get myself another drink, and the radio is playing, you just have to wait, love don’t SPERON E WESTWATER 257 Bowery New York 10002 T + 1 212 999 7337 F + 1 212 999 7338 w w w . s p e r o n e w e s t w a t e r . c o m come easy you just have to wait, love don’t come easy you just have to wait, love don’t come easy, and it’s more than you might have expected , so put out the do not disturb sign so put out the do not disturb sign and lock your door, it’s a mistake being here it’s a mistake being here it’s a mistake being here, and when you wake up, it’s breakfast in a foreign country it’s breakfast in a foreign country, you are in Paris, France you are in Paris, France, and everything on the street is straight and everything on the street is straight and everything on the stre et is straight, like when you’re sitting in a telephone booth just after we’ve hung up like when you’re sitting SPERON E WESTWATER 257 Bowery New York 10002 T + 1 212 999 7337 F + 1 212 999 7338 w w w . s p e r o n e w e s t w a t e r . c o m in a telephone booth just after we’ve hung up, completely boring completely boring and completely sad and completely sad, and slightly threatening and slightly threatening and slightly threatening and completely sad, and you’re waiting on the platform at Manhasset and you’re waiting on the platform at Manhasset for th e Long Island Railroad to come take you back to New York for the Long Island Railroad to come take you back to New York, and you’re smoking a joint and you’re smoking a joint, cause you just had dinner with your mother and dad cause you just had dinner with your mother and dad, and I know I’m not going to be doing this for the rest of my life and I know I’m not going to be doing this SPERON E WESTWATER 257 Bowery New York 10002 T + 1 212 999 7337 F + 1 212 999 7338 w w w . s p e r o n e w e s t w a t e r . c o m for the rest of my life, but when is it going to end, I’m always excruciatingly waiting here, I’m always excruciatingly waiting here, what I want what I want what I want what I want you got you got you got what I want, only you only you, and it’s not here on the Manhasset platform, but when I’m with you it feels the same as this but when I’m with you it feels the same as this, and as you and I have been told as you and I have been told, that this mi sery that this misery is display is display is display, SPERON E WESTWATER 257 Bowery New York 10002 T + 1 212 999 7337 F + 1 212 999 7338 w w w . s p e r o n e w e s t w a t e r . c o m pure phenomena, and there is no impure phenomena and there is no impure phenomena, neither pure nor impure so I ain't gonna get anymore than the Manhasset platform, surrendering to the Manhasset platform, is what turns into bliss is what turns into bliss is what turns into bliss riding a quarter horse in a rhinestone rodeo riding a quarter horse in a rh inestone rodeo, and you’re on in 3 minutes you’re on in 3 minutes, oh say can you see oh say can you see by the dawn’s early light by the dawn's early light that our flag was still SPERON E WESTWATER 257 Bowery New York 10002 T + 1 212 999 7337 F + 1 212 999 7338 w w w . s p e r o n e w e s t w a t e r . c o m there that our flag was still there, and you’re waiting in a dentist’s office and you’re waiting in your dentist’s office, and you were on time and you were on time and you were on time, but he’s in there with another patient but he’s in there with another patient, and you pick up Time Magazine and you pick up Time Magazine and there’s Jasper Johns on the cover and there’s Jasper Johns on the cover, and you’re sitting there in the dentist chair you’re sitting there in the dentist chair, and this old man who looks like Pope John Paul II and this old man who looks like Pope John Paul II, and his hands are shaking and his hands are shaking, and he’s talking about his daughter who’s married to someone SPERON E WESTWATER 257 Bowery New York 10002 T + 1 212 999 7337 F + 1 212 999 7338 w w w . s p e r o n e w e s t w a t e r . c o m in New Jersey who owns a Cessna airplane and he’s talking about his daughter who’s married to someone in New Jersey who owns a Cessna airplane, and his hands are shaking and his hands are shaking and you think the drill got your cheek and you think the drill got your cheek and you think the drill got your cheek relaxing in emptiness, you only can become enlightened by your own phenomena you only can become enlightened by your own phenomena, eating the sky eating the sky eating the sky eating the sky but the world ran out of love tonight but the world ran out of love tonight but the world ran out of love tonight, hopelessly devoted hopelessly devoted to you SPERON E WESTWATER 257 Bowery New York 10002 T + 1 212 999 7337 F + 1 212 999 7338 w w w . s p e r o n e w e s t w a t e r . c o m but where did it come from but where did i t come from but where did it come from, what am I supposed to be looking for what am I supposed to be looking for what am I supposed to be looking for, and it’s a clear picture it’s a clear picture it’s a clear picture, transparent luminous endlessly arising phenomena endlessly arising phenomena and we have reached our cruising altitude of 37,000 feet, and the cabin is pressurized for your comfort the cabin is p ressurized for your comfort, and our flight will take us over Denver, Omaha, Chicago, and north of Cleveland,