myopic The hunger bites Like the sting of ice So well disguised Never dies. Pain so deep Steals my sleep Yet an unwanted beast Is all you can see. society Purity of heart You breathe me in. Wrath You breathe me out. Innocence I am clean. Blame Paint me with your guilt. Darkness Cloak me in your shame. Pain I am named your cause. Pride I am your blindfold. Compassion I am your drought. Reality I am not part of your realm. Destruction My only product. O Man, I am your downfall panic Water, everywhere, surge of fear Watch for hope to disappear Look a little, leave a leer Worthwhile isn't welcome here No one knows, taste a tear Lies for show, truth adhere Sudden rush, approach nadir Swallow the cure, advance to the pier Darkness, silence, comfort near The only solution is death, I fear. what if life were a dream And what if life were a dream and we are all asleep and at death we awake to true reality? And what if in that dream we dreamed that we were dreaming in hopes we would awake to life as it should be? And what if all our dream was spent our dreams fulfilling rather than filling the dream with dreams we dreamed we were filling? And are dreams truly content to be forever dreaming and dream of what it's like to be a dream worth dreaming? And when we wake from our dream will we regret our dream of dreaming or will we be at peace with our dream of dream fulfilling? water Water is pure Water is clear Water is not what keeps me here. Water will run Water will roar Water is not what I live for. Water can break Water can mend Water is not to be my end. Water is soothing Water is cold Water on me does not have a hold. Water will rob Water will steal Water is not my final meal. Water can whisper Water can lie Water is not a thing on to rely. Water is murky Water is fear Water is not what keeps me here. life Life is not a promise Or a guarantee. It's not a privilege Or a game. Life isn't a moment Or a million. It's not forever Or a flash. Life's not a choice Or a reward. It's not a hassle Or a gift. Life is not permanent Or fleeting. It's not a stretch Or a blur. Life is life And it has a deadline. étouffant Airtight Pulling, pulling, pulling my skin Explode Disintegrate Was I even here? Do you know? I'd cut out the pain But blood is messy Would you miss me? best friend I thought I had a best friend. I thought I had a forever. I thought someone knew me inside and out. I thought I wasn't alone. I thought, i thought, i thought. i thought wrong. égaré I have so much inside of me, so many ideas feelings thoughts blanks. And i can’t get them out, i can’t find the words. It’s like they’re stuck inside sealed tight. No one can know, not even me. They won’t come out, they’re hiding somewhere i don’t know how to reach. And when i look in the mirror i don’t know who i see. contrarié I'm a very angry person but anger is a sin So I turn it on the mirror and carve it in my skin. I drown it with a bottle seul I want to be touched caressed wanted Not romantically, just loved. Someone to pet my hair and cuddle and just be around. voices I hear whispers from behind beside all around. Everywhere but in front where I can see. The sound of a million crickets chirping unintelligibly infallible. Voices in my head buzzing whisper shouting. Screams of hatred everywhere failure afraid to move. Forced to attempt yet guaranteed fiery loathing. Success is a non-negotiable necessity that I can’t reach. I hear raucous disappointment inescapable all around.