unforgivable-miracle L ETTER T o MY JAVI It’s crazy quiet out here today. Just the sound of the sea and the breeze. Being in a spot this calm made me want to sit down and write this to you, and maybe also because seeing a sight so pretty simply reminds me of you. If you’re reading this that must mean it’s your birthday. You deserve the absolute best year ahead, and I hope you know how much I truly appreciate you, value you, and love having you by my side. I’ll be honest, my hands are completely tied right now, and it’s been frustrating because I wanted to do so much more for you. I was even trying to figure out a way to at least surprise you with some gifts in-game, anything to mark the day, but even that isn't working out the way I wanted. You’re just going to have to wait for me to travel back so I can celebrate you properly. So for now, since I can't give you anything tangible yet, what I can give you are my words. Jose Javier Ramirez you are so unbearably PERFECT, in all the ways a person could ever come close to be. I find myself wishing I could steal the heartbeats from your chest and the air from your lungs and just hold you so tight you’ll never be able to let go. I know it’s early. I know we haven’t been together for that long, and maybe people would say it’s too soon to feel like this, but I don’t care. We work so well it feels like we were literally built for each other, like our paths were meant to collide no matter what. Honestly, it goes beyond just liking you, I am completely, utterly obsessed with you. If I could, I would literally crawl inside your mind and live under your skin just to be closer to you. Sometimes I get this crazy urge to just hide you away from the entire rest of the world, to pull you into a space where nobody else can see you, touch you, or take up your time, so I can have every single piece of you strictly to myself. I’m so serious right now and you need to know just how completely consumed I am by you. I wish you could see yourself through my eyes for just one second, because it breaks my heart how much you downplay who you are, jokingly or not. Whenever you call yourself too sensitive, or call yourself a crybaby, or pick apart your looks, your physique, or your personality, I just want to grab you and pull you close until all those doubts stop. You see flaws, but all I see is perfection. Your heart is so ridiculously pure, and the way you feel things so deeply isn't a weakness. Never that. it's one of the exact reasons I am so completely head-over-heels for you. I am so insanely attracted to you pookie, to every single inch of your body, your face, and your soul, exactly as you are right now. You couldn't be more perfect in my eyes if you tried, and I wouldn't change a single thing about you. You are everything I could have ever asked for and so much more, and I am going to spend every day making sure you finally realize how breathtaking you truly are. Happiest birthday to the most beautiful soul I know. You mean the world to me. - Racim